Honestly.

Ever since you've been in Singapore, i always knew i would have to let go of you a little, because if i keep holding on to a non-existent past, wherein you were here with me, i would not only be deluding myself, i would be holding you back. i want you to be the best you can possibly be. i am so sure you'll go places eh. 

When we weren't able to talk for 6 days or so, it got me thinking. I realized i was not so distraught by this fact, this surge of absence. I mean, i missed you and all, but honestly, it was not enough that i couldn't think about anything. i was happy in spite of it. if this happened last year, i think i would have already been in one of my emo days. It seemed i have finally learned to not having my moods depend on you. And now i wonder, am i letting go too fast? Too far? I am not used to this feeling so i really do not know. i wonder, too, if you're feeling the same way. or maybe you're too busy to think about that. HAHA.

the 2 [tama ba?] more years that have to pass before we graduate is long. if we're having problems communicating now, who knows in a year? Besides, the time after we graduate, i am not even sure we'll be reunited already. 

Honestly, right now, the future seems too vague. too scary.

I have therefore made it my mission to clear it. [yuck ang corny. haha] i promised myself yesterday, after reflecting my love dilemmas with people, that i would do everything to make this work. even though i know it gets really hard someimes to hold on to this, i am also sure the end is so much worth it. I do not know what the end is though. haha.

i had a dream about you this week. it was much too provocative, in my opinion, but it made me miss you, and wonder, yet again, about how fascinating the future would be if we were together.

i still hope you never get tired of me. Tired of my emotional outbursts, my childishness, my absurd romanticism. i hope you never get tired of waiting for us to happen.

i will wait for you. Cause i dont know what else i can do. Don't tell me i'll run out of time. If it takes the rest of my life. According to Elliot Yamin, and according to me too. :D

i love you. Advance happy valentine's. Wala pa rin akong kissing video, if you were wondering. XD